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The Perfect Date Night Sweater

Gray Tassel Sweater White House Black Market also in black HERE/ White Jeans similar HERE/ Black over-the-knee boots similar HERE and HERE

Happy Monday all! I hope you had a great weekend. Bruce and I have been trying to soak up every second of our weekends together because during the week it's so crazy! I am not even back to work yet, and it's still busy. The weekends seem to be our time to do whatever the heck we want with our little man and now that we are finally getting into a groove its been fun to take him out to lunch with us, do errands, or just stay in, light a fire, and get cozy.

As you can see in these pics we got snow over the weekend! I actually don't mind it when it's pretty, but I am still so looking forward to spring.

I wore this White House Black Market tassel wrap sweater over the weekend for a lunch date and errands. This sweater is so flattering on, and in case anyone is breastfeeding like me-it's super convenient! The tassels give the sweater a fun femininity, and the cut of the sweater is sexy without being too over-the-top. It also comes in black which I think would be super cute with a pair of faux leather pants or a pin skirt and boots for Valentine's Day.

I hope you all have a great week! Don't forget, tonight's the Bachelor! ;)
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Black on Black

Black Sweater   / Black Bomber Jacket    / Black Ankle Pants  / Heels Christian Louboutin 

Although I love me some bright color, there is nothing like an all black outfit- it's super chic and super transitional. This look can easily go from day to night by swapping the bomber leather jacket for a simple black blazer, and the heels to ankle boots for the office, and then wear the heels and bomber jacket for happy hour or date night!

When wearing a cowl neck or if I have any sort of detail on my top I try to wear my hair up. It gives the look sophistication and keeps things understated. Sometimes big hair with a big cowl neck or detail can be too overwhelming!

This is a simple,  go-to for any occasion.

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Winter Neon

Neon Pink Sweater (last season) found similar HERE (in neon) and love THIS and THIS/ Leggings Zella (my absolute favorite...they hold up so well!)/ Black and White Striped Tee H&M in store or similar HERE/ Vest Jcrew, also have always loved THIS/ Boots Sorel/ Hat (old) love THIS

The weather was absolutely amazing this weekend... around 60 and sunny (Not normal I should say!)We took Peter for his first stroller ride outside and we brought our sweet fur baby Max along too. He has been so cooped up with this winter it felt so good to get the family out for a nice long walk. 

I have been craving some color in my wardrobe so threw on this neon pink sweater. I love pops of color with simple black or black and white stripes. The look is just enough to give me that pop without being too over the top. 

I was living in leggings right after I had my c-section and still throw them on while out and about with our little man. I have tried so many and love the Zella brand at Nordstrom. They are thick, comfortable, and hold up SO well. I definitely recommend them, especially if you find yourself going through leggings a lot. 

I hope you all have a great week! I can't believe it's Monday already! It's supposed to get cold and snowy again.... man am I ready for Spring!

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Our Birthing Story

I have to be honest, I probably sat at my new computer for a full ten minutes, gazing off into space thinking about this post. Part because this post is not my typical "outfit of the day", part because I am diving into a new pool that I have never before, and part because actually typing out an experience can bring back so many emotions and in all honesty I wasn't sure if I was prepared for that. I have been so far removed from my fashion blog ever since I gave birth and because of that I was super nervous to dive back in. My blog is such a big piece of who I am, yet I have been so afraid to start blogging again! Will it ever be what I want it to be? Will I have the time with my new baby, my job, wanting time with Bruce, and just wanting time for me? Our new normal is still an adjustment, but I know that when things are important to you, they always end up working out in some way.

When people say "A baby changes everything" it's no joke. That phrase should be taken quite literally because a baby changes EVERYTHING. I used to hear this and automatically think it meant something negative-  but now that I am on the other side, it actually means something overwhelmingly positive. I have felt and learned about love, life, family, and faith more than ever. I have learned about myself, my husband, I have an understanding for what really matters, and most of all I have gained perspective....  A LOT of perspective.

During my pregnancy I remember thinking "why don't women tell each other these things!" I swear I felt that way constantly when I was pregnant! I would have an experience like (disclaimer this is raw truth!) having crazy gas, or constantly peeing my pants at work (like seriously peed my pants every. single. day.), or not sleeping because I was just so uncomfortable or loving that people asked about the pregnancy but commenting constantly on how big my belly looked or asking when I was due, the baby's name, who the pedicatrican is, if I planned on breastfeeding, how long I planned on taking off of work, would I be staying home after that or going back..... LOL this is no joke people ask and ask and assssssk! Are all you mommas out there hearing me?!

Aside from all of this normal pregnancy stuff, I really felt like I had the best pregnancy. Overall I felt great both physically and mentally and I felt as though child birth would be pretty straight forward.

I went into labor the night of the super moon. I swear that moon got things going! (but seriously... it was too weird!) I labored all night and then in the morning Bruce starting timing my contractions and we knew it was time to go in soon. Before heading to the hospital I had to shower. I was not about to have hairy legs while giving birth! Plus a shower is calming and helped with my nerves and anxiety. After my shower we got dressed, grabbed our over night bags (which we had packed for weeks) and drove off. The drive there was pretty out of body. I remember both of us looking at one another and saying "omg this is really happening ... we are going to have our baby today." When you first get there they send you to triage to make sure you are actually in labor (and I remember thinking, hell if this is not labor I don't want to feel what labor is!) The nurse did an exam to see if I was dilated and although I was having contractions I wasn't dilated yet. She told me that I would probably bleed from the exam but that it would eventually stop. Soon off I started to dilate and they sent me back to labor and delivery, but the bleeding didn't stop. I knew something was not normal but tried not to panic and tried to focus on my baby boy.

Once in labor and delivery the nurses kept asking me to change positions because baby boy's heart rate was lowering by the minute. Again I tried not to panic but knew something was not right. I had been laboring for hours -the only thing that got me through was Bruce coaching me through every contraction and having a focal point in my mind to concentrate on. For me it was a paddle going into the water.... every stroke I pictured was a breath. After hours of waiting and laboring, the  nurses  came in and told me I could not have an epidural because my platlettes were too low. I literally did not know that this was even a thing! That is when I started to panic. The pain was so intense and I was mentally and physically spent. I prayed and prayed to God to get me through and that is when the doc came in and told me we had to do an emergency c-section. "Wait what?" Is exactly what I was thinking. I was just concerned about not getting an epidural and now I'm having an emergency c-section? Apparently my placenta had separated too soon and I was  bleeding out.(hence all the blood) Due to this baby boy's heart rate was decreasing, and on top of that the cord was wrapped around his neck twice. We didn't even have a second to process the information. The nurses literally tossed scrubs to Bruce and they were wheeling me out of the room. They wouldn't let Bruce in until after they prepped me and I just remember screaming that I wanted him. They assured me he would be allowed in the room during surgery but I was so scared. An emergency c-section happens so fast. I remember them transferring my naked body onto what seemed like a huge silver tray. There were tons of nurses around and all I could really see were the bright lights above my head. I was shaking uncontrollably from the meds and shock so Bruce had one hand and the anesthesiologist had the other. In minutes our baby boy was out.  I remember being soooo out of it ,but hearing his cry and just thanking God that he was alive and okay. They handed baby boy to Bruce and he brought him over so I could see. I remember looking over at our sweet baby boy and just thinking he was so beautiful, but it wasnt until in recovery that I could do skin to skin with our baby boy, love on him, and start comprehending what had just happened.

Having a c-section is no joke. When people say you are down for six weeks that is no exaggeration. I am just now starting to feel like myself, but honestly I am still swollen above my incision. When I see other bloggers already posting outfits a week or two after a c-section I have to wonder how they are doing it because I was in so much pain. I really look forward to continue and share my experience along the way and hope to be a sounding board for soon to be mamas out there. It is so important to have a plan, but know it could change. It is also so important to lean on your spouse, your family, and your friends because you absolutely need the help. I don't know what I would do without all of them.

I am so thankful and love being a mamma. The labor experience was so scary, the healing has been a process, I have a huge scar, but none of it even matters. Yes I am human and have my moments feeling frustrated about my scar, or being on no sleep but thats part of the gig. None of those feelings could ever overshadow the love I have for this baby-he is the biggest blessing God has ever given me and Bruce.

This photo I just look exhausted.  I can't believe how gray I look from losing so much blood. 

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